in contemplation
to drop or not to drop. that is the question.
it's been plaguing me for the past few weeks as i take moments here and there to take stock of my academic performance and the options available to me should i think that i am once again swimming in the waters of academic deep shit.
last sem it was legal history. that subject while quite interesting (thanks to the off-color near-activist comments by our professor) eluded my great powers of bullshit. by mid semester my standing was such that if i made it to the finals and -as i am wont to do with subjects such as this- i flunked the finals, i would have seen my first five of my law school career. i dropped that subject, along with twelve of my like-minded blockmates, and escaped the massacre. our prof flunked half of the 16 who stayed behind.
while apparently there is a new directive from the office of the college secretary that says that students who dropped subjects have to take them with the original professor, which means that merely delayed what would've been my first five, that is a matter of no immediate concern to me.
this subject, the one i'm worried about right now, is kinda like legal history. not a bar subject. two units. two infernally long hours. few cases, but lots of articles written by people with lots of time on their hands and quite possibly no life. but there are small differences.
in this subject, i'm close to being dropped for excessive absences- the first when i got sent out for not having a stupid picture in the stupid seat plan, then when i went with sina kuya aman to supreme court, then when the prof got pissed at us for going out of the classroom, then when i wasn't feeling well, then when my aunt was here and we spent her last day in the philippines with her, although i was sick then too.
also, i haven't been called yet, and i'm still trying to shore up enough courage to volunteer and thus get as close to my professor's good graces as humanly possible. though in fear of being called i speed read my way through three articles and now am reasonably confident that i won't sound like a total putz.
plus, the professor has this droning voice that-if i wasn't seated at the first row and thus under his ever watchful eye- induces deep sleep. and he hates my guts.
but while these points are seemingly pointing towards the obvious answer of dropping, i also have to consider the fact that removals in method beckons, and i still have to re-take legal history, and i'd simply be delaying boredom and a five-yet again-for a year.
sigh. decisions decisions.
it's been plaguing me for the past few weeks as i take moments here and there to take stock of my academic performance and the options available to me should i think that i am once again swimming in the waters of academic deep shit.
last sem it was legal history. that subject while quite interesting (thanks to the off-color near-activist comments by our professor) eluded my great powers of bullshit. by mid semester my standing was such that if i made it to the finals and -as i am wont to do with subjects such as this- i flunked the finals, i would have seen my first five of my law school career. i dropped that subject, along with twelve of my like-minded blockmates, and escaped the massacre. our prof flunked half of the 16 who stayed behind.
while apparently there is a new directive from the office of the college secretary that says that students who dropped subjects have to take them with the original professor, which means that merely delayed what would've been my first five, that is a matter of no immediate concern to me.
this subject, the one i'm worried about right now, is kinda like legal history. not a bar subject. two units. two infernally long hours. few cases, but lots of articles written by people with lots of time on their hands and quite possibly no life. but there are small differences.
in this subject, i'm close to being dropped for excessive absences- the first when i got sent out for not having a stupid picture in the stupid seat plan, then when i went with sina kuya aman to supreme court, then when the prof got pissed at us for going out of the classroom, then when i wasn't feeling well, then when my aunt was here and we spent her last day in the philippines with her, although i was sick then too.
also, i haven't been called yet, and i'm still trying to shore up enough courage to volunteer and thus get as close to my professor's good graces as humanly possible. though in fear of being called i speed read my way through three articles and now am reasonably confident that i won't sound like a total putz.
plus, the professor has this droning voice that-if i wasn't seated at the first row and thus under his ever watchful eye- induces deep sleep. and he hates my guts.
but while these points are seemingly pointing towards the obvious answer of dropping, i also have to consider the fact that removals in method beckons, and i still have to re-take legal history, and i'd simply be delaying boredom and a five-yet again-for a year.
sigh. decisions decisions.
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