start at the middle

so later i shall be embarking on a strange trip...to the beginning of things.

though i wonder if i will succeed considering the light-years i have jumped in the continuum.

how does one manage it? does one suspend reality for a while, pretend that nights previous did not occur?
in the effort to see if there can be actual conversation and good clean fun how does one forget that the sight of you is a great red flag being waved furiously in front of my formerly frustrated eyes?

i know, i shall just keep in mind that

red means stop.

so when i see you, great red waving flag that you are, i shall think, stop thinking of bones being jumped and un pg fun and late night drives home and

focus

on the attempt to make (what should have been) the beginning the middle.