trouble ahead

had this conversation with this girl who's one of those people i talk to and trust especially when it comes to my disastrous love life. or at times lack even of a disastrous one.

and i came away from it part amused, part amazed, part confused, part hopeful, part apathetic, part pissed.

cause here i go again.

just when i think i've reached equilibrium, well...equilibrium as is applied to me, just when i think my focus is readjusted, my life well partitioned, my schedule scheduled,

something happens.

and as i seemingly unfailingly-did i just massacre english?sorry- always end up doing, i am once again swimming in one of the deepest piles-wait, solid to diba? basta- of shit ever known to man.

i am in deep shit.

deep stinky shit.

cause me, and guys, it never works out. it's always one thing, or another. or another. and i'm always the one who ends up half crazy.

i dunno how this will work. i dunno how this will end. or start. i dunno if there's even a THIS. i dunno if i should even worry, or take it seriously, or laugh it off, or just-goddamnit-say no.

but sure as there's hell and i'm on my way there,

this is bound to be one hell of an episode for my telenovela life.