whispered farewell to a quietly held hope

because you have been my friend, an especially good one, sincere, honest, caring, loyal, a true comfort and source of happiness,

because you have been there for me in happiness and in sadness, to shelter me from my disasters with an embrace and to share in my exultation,

because you deserve to be happy, you do.

i will whisper farewell to, and while no one is looking, wipe a little tear away for, that little thing in the back of my mind that always provided some sort of inspiration and strength, that hope that maybe, maybe,

maybe.

and i will find it in me to smile, and be happy for you, and welcome you as you are changed by the now when i see you next, distant but near, beside, open yet part closed.

and i will go forth into my future knowing that net that kept me safe as i walked the tightrope of of disastrous encounters is gone, never to be seen again, at least not the way it was there before.

as it should be, as it should've been.

allow me though this little whisper, this quiet, almost unseen wave to that safe haven of hope.

i am happy for you, I AM. happy that you're happy, happy that this path makes you happy, happy that life is blessing you this way. never doubt my happiness for you.

i am sad for me, for what i could've had, for what i chose to not have, for this little regret.