not quite hit yet

recently de-blocked, and doomed to spend summer drifting in the sea of un-blocked-ness, i was too busy with grad comm though to feel anything about it. i felt sad at not being able to join them for the cebu trip, at not having a few more drinking sessions before summer began, but really, too busy. in the way that i often find myself too busy.

and having committed to more than a month of being an intern (so i have something to show for four years of law-two years palang but i hope i reach four) i haven't really had the time to contemplate what it means, really, to be the new kid.

for sure no one in the new block will understand that i like sitting alone in the back row cause sometimes my anti-social thing kicks in and i can be quite unpleasant (though i regret it later...sometimes).

and it will take them time to see that talking to me when my hair isn't fixed yet isn't such a smart idea.

and it will take me forever to understand their system, their subgroups, their general "thing" that's made them a block.

too busy to think of all that right now.

so...for the nonce, drinks every night, a good book to unwind, and a guy to amuse me. long drives home, dancing here and there.

for sure the feeling of aloneness will hit, soon, hard and fast, and it will have the majorly wow ouch effect that delayed reactions usually have on me.

but for now... booze, books, children, old interests, new people.


for now.